Sunday, September 27, 2015


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Sitting on a patio with my sis, on a beautiful Fall afternoon.
The small pleasures in life make it all worthwhile :)

Saturday, September 26, 2015

What's it mean to be like "everyone else"...?

Sometimes, I get frustrated because I just want to be like everyone else.
And by "everyone else" I think I just mean what I have, in my head, determined to be the standard - regardless of whether it's realistic or not.

I want to be able to rely on someone. I'd like to just for a little bit not be the one taking care of everyone else - I just want someone to take charge, tell me they'll handle it. I'm exhausted from having people dump things on me.

I have no one to blame bu myself. I love my family and friends, I want to be there for them, and help them in any way that I can. I want them to know that they can rely on me. But I need a break too. I love my parents, but I'm tired of making their doctors appointments for them, calling their life insurance rep, submitting their benefits claims for them, taking time off to go with them to see the doctor, calling the bank to find out why their debit card has been cancelled. It's nonstop. I love that my sister confides in me, but I'm tired of hearing about how her students misbehaved, a parent gave her grief, her long-distance boyfriend isn't answering her texts. When was the last time she asked me how I was doing? I don't remember...

I guess this is just what we do. We dump things onto those we love. We share our burdens, and our worries. For some reason, today these things are really weighing me down. I wish I had someone in my life to share these burdens with.

Maybe that's what's actually weighing me down. Not everyone else's problems, just my own loneliness and feeling like 'm not in control of my own life.

Maybe I just don't know what I want.

Monday, September 21, 2015

������ Happy birthday @amiguelo - my partner in shenanigans, blarney and malarkey ��

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My baby sister isn't a baby anymore...
I guess she hasn't been one for some time now :)
We went to a wine-tasting festival to celebrate the big 3-0. Nothing like drowning your aging sorrows in delicious local wines...!